Beautiful summer day, I am trying to tell my brother to come near me but you are thinking that i am calling you. First laugh starts with misunderstanding.Same night we meet on the dance floor. It is still not so hard for me to remember, you were looking like an angel in that white dress… I was 16 when i met you. And you were 18. We could leave it as a summer love but we didnt. And the reason was your tears. But how fair is that now i am writing this in tears. In this 5 years we tried to keep this long distance relationship alive. But we were not just another couple. We talked everyday, yes everyday. I woke up thinking about you, i fell asleep thinking about you, there is nothing left in me, it was all you. I came to california to be able to give us a better future. Being an engineer here would finally lead us the life we wanted but you abondoned me. I cant blame you. I really cant because i know what you have been going through. It was hard for me as well. You are always ahead of me in this life because of your age i believe and this causing the real problem. However, there are no words to describe the feelings when we are together. They were the best moments of my life. We both know what we had was more than real love. I guess there were 2 main points that i made mistake. Instead of coming to United States, i should have come to St. Petersburg for university. Maybe we wouldnt be so far in life fast but we could achieve something slowly. And second was listening to your parents last christmas. I should have understand that it was a plan to seperate us, it was not because you were busy with your thesis. So i couldnt come to see you. Things would have been different, i know that.And the worst thing is you and your parents had the holiday we planned together. That was like a dagger to me but still. I called you everyday because i was missing you and you were stolen from me…
Freshest memory is the way you look at me when you were walking to your plane after our wonderful 70 days in Turkey last summer. And i think i want to keep it that way. There is unbearable pain in my heart and i think it will never heal. I can not tell it to you but please, let me go… I dont want to get hurt no more…
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